Topic: Changes
Location: In deep thought
Mood: Grateful
Listening To: Apocalyptica - End of Me feat. Gavin Rossdale
Word of the Day: Flark
It's been way too long since I logged in here. And really the only thing that inspired me to do so, was because a friend needed help fixing her graphics. But once I logged in, I realized, I need to do this. I need to keep a journal. And maybe I don't need to write everyday, but I should visit more often.
Now, the reason I said I'm such a follower, is because said friend is combining her blogs, and going private. I on the other hand, am combining my blogs and staying public. I've come to the conclusion that I can't seperate facets of my life. I am who I am, as a whole entity, not a private and a public. This is me.
What's happened since last I wrote? Samhain was fantastic this year, the costumes were the best yet. Yule was mixed emotions, mostly due to mom's health. It was her last one with us, and I'm really sad about that.
Mom died on February 19, 2010 at about 2:45 in the morning. She'd been fighting various things on and off for the better part of 2 decades. She never really fully recovered from my dad's death in '88, then a debilitating illness hit her in '01. We had a good run of it. And I grateful to have had her in my life as long as I did. We tried to give her everything we could, and to make her as comfortable as possible. She went into the hospital at the end of December, and wasn't able to come back out. Being in the hospital ultimately is what took her. There was an outbreak and her floor was quarantined, so out of the month and a half she was in there, 3 weeks of it was spent in isolation. And I think that's what the hardest thing to get over was.
We had a quiet ceremony for her at home to say our goodbyes. It's what she wanted. Elvis was playing in the background, we looked over old photo's, said the things she wanted said, and now we're trying to move on.
And that is about all I think I can write today.
Apocalyptica feat. Gavin Rossdale - End Of Me
